food woes~!

dineLA!!! i want to go but it ends this week! ack! why do i always find out about it so late?! T.T

chase

first day of work tomorrow!

too bad i got sick so now i sound like a man. ;[

hopefully i'll come out alive. ;T

hearts, stars, and horseshoes... clovers and blue moons!

what did i do my first day NOT at WF??

1. i had to wake up early (630AM!!!) to go to court to help my pops w/a traffic citation. ;[

2. went to disneyland!!! yay!!!

3. had eileen's belated bday dinner w/girlfriends @ a delicious seafood restaurant.

overall, a pretty long but good day. ;]

how glorious!

my last day at WF has finally arrived.

VICTORY!!!

chase... here i come!

why am i so crazy.

i need to calm down.

be still my heart, Lord!

i desire to have selfless faith but why do i struggle with it everyday? perhaps because i don't desire it more than i desire to fulfill my own selfishness? show me how to love like you love me, Lord!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNBB3pAZpAo&feature=related

puhahaha!! so funny!! this baby is so so cute~!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PyG-lHFuy8&feature=player_embedded

whip my hair back and forth.

hello again! it's been quite a long time since i last posted... haha!

well, all i have to say is God provided me with a new job!

PRAISE GOD! ;D

oh and i love disneyland!

i just got back from a weekend getaway to vegas with a few of my girlfriends. overall, i had fun and it was relaxing. however, things did not exactly happen the way i expected or planned. despite the curveballs thrown at us, we were able to enjoy our time there and was sad to leave. some of the events that unfolded over the weekend...

1. the room we booked was for 2 queens, but they ran out so we got a king bed + roller bed instead but we got $50 additional resort credit to the $75 credit that we already had. (we stayed at the aria hotel btw.)

2. the first night, we decided to go to one of the "hottest" nightclubs in vegas b/c we wanted to dance the night away and have a good time (with just us girls, of course! no hanky panky!), however the "hottest" nightclub has its downfalls... an unbelievably long line where even the cutest or hottest people can't bribe their way in. just as we got to the front of the line, even PAID for admission ($20 for girls and $50 for guys), one of my friends' ended up passing out due to extreme exhaustion possibly connected to the heat, so we ended up leaving w/her being wheeled out in a wheelchair. we were right at the door when this happened w/stamps on our hands and everything. (thankfully, she was alright and recovered shortly afterward.)

3. the next day which was sunday, we woke up and went down to watch the world cup finals game at a sports bar in our hotel and have some brunch, but lo and behold, we weren't the only ones interested in watching the game and it was extremely crowded and chaotic. i ended up going back to the room to watch the game and eat my food while my friends stayed downstairs b/c i didn't like the crowd.

4. after the game, we all started getting ready for the lion king show, but a bathroom door fixture happened to fall and nearly hit my friend so we called the front desk to file a complaint and that ended up taking an extremely long time b/c we wanted to see if they could do something about it, they were being unwilling and not helpful at first. they sent some security guy to inspect the situation but he was of no use and we had to catch a show so we ended up wasting about an hour or so w/this ordeal and ended up leaving for the show and told him that we would deal w/it later. they called the paramedics even tho we told them there was no need... go figure. ;T they asked a few dumb questions like "what day is today?", "what year is it?", etc. SOooo, after the show, we came back and my friend spoke to the front desk and we finally ended up getting a free upgrade and an additional $50 resort credit! yay! we went from a regular room w/a king bed+ roller bed on the 14th floor to this beautiful suite w/a living room, 2 bathrooms and another king bed, but the couch in the living room was big enough to sleep on so it was okay. the view was amazing b/c it was a corner suite and the bathroom in the bedroom had a bidet, shower and a jetstream bathtub w/a view and tv on the wall. it was amazing!

so overall, there were many unexpected things that happened but we ended up having a good time anyway. we went to the aria buffet twice b/c of the resort credit and their buffet is super yummy! we also went to the mandaly bay buffet after the lion king show (which was great) but their buffet wasn't that great... ;[

what a trip. i even proposed a challenge on our way there but we weren't able to make it happen b/c we ended up hanging out w/each other and not really socializing b/c of the circumstances. oh well, there's always next time.

although we all ended up having fun, in hindsight, what comes to my mind is that i still desperately need God and what a wretch i am. i will further elaborate on this thought on my next post.

worked all day from 8-6PM.

got home, ate and relaxed from 630PM-8PM.

started massively job hunting from 8PM to now.

i'm delirious. time to sleep. good night!

work work work!

we got our audit notice friday morning and that was the start of all the madness. i was one of the lucky few hand selected to take the exam that counts for 60% of our total audit but thankfully i wasn't too worried about it b/c i've taken before in the past and it's pretty easy smeesy. we had an early morning meeting at 7AM today for all team members that will be present for the audit on monday so we can debrief, coach and pretty much cover all our bases. UNfortunately for me, it was my day off today but i had to go to the meeting AND work over 12 hours today due to this frickin frackin audit. i was supposed to be off on monday too but that had to be changed as well. i worked close to 60 hours this week w/o any days off! thank GOD for OT! ;D it was extremely stressful and tiring, but i think we've done the best we can and hopefully we do well. i can only hope for the best. another lil perk is that our auditor is a keanu reeves lookalike. he's half korean/half white and he's pretty cute... haha!! not that it makes the audit any less nerve-wracking or stressful. ;T anyhow, i'm going to try to take it easy for a while after this thing is over!

yay! i have some things planned for the next few weeks so i have things to look forward to.

jjim jil bang this saturday since its my day off w/hs chingoos.

hair trim/dying sometime in the beginning of july.

trip to vegas w/the same beloved chingoos at the end of july.

i haven't been to vegas with friends in over a year and i didn't really have anything planned for the summer so i'm looking forward to that.

today was father's day and unfortunately, due to the fact that everyone in my family is broke, we weren't able to take our dad out so my mom cooked us a fabulous meal instead. i'm planning on taking him out next weekend after i get paid... haha. ;P

anyhoo, we had jap chae, dweji bool gogi, dae goo mae oon tang and some namool. now i will have some food to take for lunch for the next few days. yay! afterwards, we all went walking for a good 45 min. and then my sister forced me to work out a lil bit so we lifted some weights and did some ab workouts. hopefully i can keep it up so i can be healthy and lose some weight! ;D

the new panera bread opened this past monday which has been the highlight of my week. i've been there about 4 times already. once for lunch on tuesday and three other times for breakfast on the way to work in the morning. it's so quick and convenient b/c it's right off the freeway and on my way to the bank. i usually get the cinnamon crunch bagel (which is absolutely heavenly) or one of their many breakfast soufflés which is also divine. it's been the little glimmer of joy that i've had this week... haha! sad, isn't it? ;[

this probably isn't the best way to go about losing weight, but i've decided that i will enjoy my panera bread and will have to sacrifice other things. i have and will continue to incorporate some regular exercise into my life. 화이팅!

korea lost to argentina. boo!

lakers won the finals. yay!

i broke even in poker. yay!

i have work tomorrow. boo!

job status is still up in the air. boooooo. ;[

i know i said i'd try to keep up this blog, but i totally suck because i have no idea what to write about! i will think long and hard and try to come up with a thoughtful entry soon. i'm super sleepy so time for a nap! ;D

there might be a possible opportunity for me to get out of my branch and transfer to another one, but i'm torn! i'm not sure whether i should go for this opportunity or stick it out and wait to hear from any one of the 30 postings i applied for in the past couple of weeks. gahhhh!! discernment is what i need! i do need to get out of my branch one way or another... it's so bad there! really bad karma or something! only one thing do... pray pray pray!

Praise God for He is SO good!

I'mmmmmmmmmmm backkkkkkkk~!! I am so ready to go full force and take over the world! I am more determined and motivated than ever to pull everything together and achieve the goals that I have set for myself. I thank God for being so good to me despite all my doubts and worries. ;D Look out world!

P.S. I got my new car last night! Yay! I'm very happy with it and she's beautiful! No more headaches with that darn old beamer... good riddance!

biggest loser finale! amazingness!!

my dad wants me join the show... haha!

i am inspired nonetheless!

i am going to stop lollygagging around and take some action.

I CAN DO IT!! HWA EE TING!

i sold my car today.

it happened quickly and seemed surreal, but it's officially gone!

no more car burdens! yay!

i'm having cramps.

i never have cramps.

it's really uncomfortable and painful. ;[

what do i dooooooooo?!

i like to eat too much.

gastronome i am!

nom nom nom!

but i need to think about losing weight and attracting a man

so i can get married, don't i? ;[

or that's what my momma says. hrmph.

it doesn't help the fact that the ladies of the lee family tend to have this ongoing trend of being single. 2 of my aunts (dad's sisters), 2 of my cousins... although one has been in a relationship for a while now, and another aunt who is my dad's cousin. meh!

Whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say

It is well, it is well with my soul

It is well, with my soul

It is well, it is well, with my soul

I want to be able to wholeheartedly say that it is well or it will be well with my soul without any doubt or hesitation. However, I am not quite there yet unfortunately. But I will be soon.

ugh. i keep getting rejected from schoolsfirst credit union even though i fulfill the requirements and expectations for the positions i've posted for!! grrr! this is so frustrating and confusing... not to mention a blow to your self-esteem and ego! whether it's due to the high number of applicants (which is a very true possibility) or bad luck, this seriously blows. this is my 3rd rejection email already. i am holding out for one more position i applied for and i haven't received any response yet which i'm hoping is a good sign. they can't hate me already, right? they don't even know me! i am going to be persistent and keep trying because i desperately want to enter this company! i even have a friend who's trying to help me too (with whatever help he can provide) so PLEASE LORD!! let all the pieces finally fit together! i know there's a greater plan and You are definitely sovereign but i'm praying that this is according to Your Will! gah! ;[

Jeremiah 29:11.

I self-diagnosed myself with depression. I looked up the symptoms and I possessed all of them. From loss of memory (details, events or even things that just happened), erratic sleep patterns (too much sleep/too little), complete sense of time is lost, unusual and unexpected bowel movements, anti-social tendencies, feelings of worthlessness and the list goes on. How frightening is it when you THINK you're fine and dandy one day but you actually come to realize that you aren't so fine after all because your defense mechanism has been fooling you all this time? It's terrifying. So much so that I ran away to the deepest corners that I could retreat to. But then... from a distance, I heard it... my wonderful Father coming to find and save me yet again. He knows me so well... because He loves me.

well...

i think i'm almost back to normal.

whatever normal is.

i'm insecure.

i feel undesirable.

i feel ugly.

this is the struggle i face every single day while i try to put on my happy face. ultimately, i get through it all because of God's grace...

that is the only explanation that i have.

Praise God.